soooooooooooooooooooooooooomeeee WHHHHHHERE over the rainBOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW waaaaaaaaaaay uuuuup HIIIIIIgh theres a place that i heArd oF oooonce in a lullabye...

ok
rock a by baby in the treetop
when wind blows the cradle will rock
when the brough breaks the cradle will fall
and down will come baby
cradle and all

wtf? why do we sing this to our children? its so demented and scary and that is what we sing to our children to make them go to sleep? its absurd!

that was spurred on by the fact that ive been around alot of babies lately and you know what im convinced those kids are being over stimulated. i was playing with my friend jens baby christopher and holy shit. all of his toys had a gabizzilion colors and flashing lights and music and buttons and no matter which way you turned there were lights colors sound action! and then to top it all off he had a little shiny spinny thing over his head and baby beethoven in the back round. ok so ur kid might end up smart but holy shit will he be bored. hell need like 300 types of stimuli around him to keep him occupied and hed prolly be really add too bein all like oo shiny...synphony...ball...chew ring...jump up and down on the key board...

oh yeah and i went to mcdonalds the other day for a happy meal and dude they gave out little video games. wheres the need for imagination these days? people used to have to drag me inside and now the kids dont want to go out and play? they want to sit in front of their little laptops and play games there?? wtf? i mean i used to have to pay money for those types of ghetto little black over tan screened things. hell i still think i have my aladin and power rangers around here somwhere. dude i feel so oooold. *sigh*

dude i really like this new format its a lot more user friendly if you know what i mean. its weird man i gotta get online more but its like impossible here cause my sissys compy is so damn slow. oi. oi vey? hmmm what shall i babble about today. ohhhhh ok whats really wrong with littering? i mean sure its dirty.... but so is dirt and no one really has a problem with that on the road. see what i dont get is a paper cup isnt going to go damage the environment anymore than that asphalt road so whats the big damn deal? is it just cause its ooooogly? and dude landfills? who came up with that idea? and arent we running out of room for trash? maybe we should make robots...yeah ROBOTS that can sort through the landfills and dig out the organic stuff for decomposition into fertilizer, and get all the metal for recycling, the paper and glass too. i mean other than baby diapers what else is left? whooooOOoo.o

duuuude im at CMU right now. the compys here rock cause at my sisters house they are too ghetto to use cause things get layered and links dont work and we have DIAL UP....for shame. neway its kind of sad here i am supposed to volunteer and im just chillin in a lab waiting for my brothers friend lori to get back so i can go clean up hamster shit and the like. btw i appologize for not posting more reguarly.

dude i did the funniest fucking thing last night. i did BUNS AND ABS of STEEEEL with my sister...and for part of it my large and in charge brother. you see...aerobics is alot harder than it looks cause ok IMAGINE... your marching with those spandex clad cheerleaders and then BOOM they start doin some jazz step...it takes you a second to figure it out but pretty soon your feeling pretty competent. but then they throw in some weird arm thing a hip roll spins rock steps and your left standing there being like WHAT THE HELL??? ok and thats just you. now to your right is my sister. ok. now pretend shes white. very white. with the rhythm of a....penguin. yes the rhythm of a penguin. then to your left is my 240lb martial artist brother who has this strange stupid peppy look plastered on his face. and then on the couch is my brother's pregnant wife who is just having the time of her life watching us make complete asses of ourselves. i feel as if i should have taped this scene. it was just so damn priceless.

"yes i am a hypocrite welcome to adolescence." "u know i really like me. as arrogant bitchy self concieted and hypocritical as it sounds i really do." im glad im still young. im in one of those moods where i really love being a kid. i didnt really do nethin to exciting today and we kicked maja bootay in soccer today. well ok we lost but hey we played great. maybe i wanna run away to never never land on a grand pink pony and never grow up. i can sleep on a bed of daisys and bathe in the sun....if only if only. i wonder how things will turn out. who people will be. *sigh* such ponderous thoughts. i must return to pittsburgh. a little less than 3 weeks n ill be back at kings downin the kitchen sink. where has the time gone? i was bullshittin on the phone with an old friend of mine on sunday. what happened to the days that i spent down in the woods, climin a few trees. catchin a couple cray fish. not a care in the world. mayhaps i dont want to grow up. damn what was that song....eh. u know what i found today?? a really lovely picture of me and a bunch of friends laughin. :) it needs to be summer dontcha know. then i will have no urge to try and be anally mature as bobie might say. ill indulge in my childish delights. i wonder what all the big shit in life is? life love and liberty? so far im perty set. maybe now i gotta do is ummmm.....finish my sculpture. of eleanor. im going to turn her bubies into a money holder. hmmm gotta take more art classes. artsy fartsy. heh. i do like coffee. u knwo what would be fun? climbing in that HUGE foam pit! that should be post prom. hehe. u know what was really fun today? running across the lacross field with nothing but the sky above me. yay. of course i was only heading towards the portapotty but hey for a few moments things were very nice. and on my return LUCY SCOORRRRED. yeah rock. go bison cheer. heh heh no one cares cause nones of u is soccer folks. gotsta love those endorphins. grr my cat is being a bratwurst. hes trying to eat my foot. PINK is a weird artist. uh huh. she is. i wonder what my hair would look like PINK. bad. very very bad. speaking of which im surprisingly excited about prom. i dont know why i love dances so...but i do. and lots o my underclassmen buds are goin so all the better. i dont see why ppl stress over it tho. i mean hey if i dont get a dress i can always wear the one my big sissy gave me. yah. that reminds me. i havent talked to a friend of mine in a long time. im worried about her. but its her life. *sigh* so helpless. i think i should volunteer at planned parenthood. that would be nice. i mean im not exactly pro abortion but im most definately pro birth control. baaaah tooo many ppls. gr. dude u know whats nummy? avacados. i dont know when i started lovin them but i do their green gooeyness is soooo ADICTIVE. its like ummmmmmmm i dno what its like. maybe oranges. i wonder. i wonder whats in a wonder ball. i havent made a lovely babbly post like this in a while. nope nope i havent. hey what happened to that gel pen craze. that used to be da PIMPTEST. bah ino why im writing this. i dont wanna write my history paragraph. ooOOOooo u know whats the bessssstest sedative? ENGLISH reading. maybe cause im havin a hard time getting into the book or im just tired by the time i start but damn i was out b4 11. baaaaaaaaahhhhh gotta have dat spa day. i can make lots o MULA yah. yah yah. dude i wonder what ever happend to jerg? hes from holland. i dont know how to spell his name but he was funny. i wonder what ever happened to him. dawn would know. i miss dawn. i should chill with her sometime. *sigh* where has all the time gone? bah why do i miss so damn many people. gr. gr. gr. tigger? MERRY??? damn. ok no more bloggin im just getting sullen.

globalization is an interesting process, while on one hand it seems to have spurned a great deal of homogenization (sp?) it also has allowed minority to meet minority and further these minor sects. i think the major problem with capitalism is the attitude of our benefit at any cost. should we have placed sweat shops in third world countries? who knows? but now that theyre there we cant just take them away, they are one of the few sources of income. if globalization has the momentum i aspect it to we need to question the long term benefits. although a sweat shop creates nice soccerballs hand stitched by 12 yr olds, those 12 yr olds probably will never have the money to buy one new. so perhaps henry ford, with all his faults had a point. as did the producerists. a fair share of profits. its funny being idealistic because i have absolutely no idea how to implement any such system because such ideals are highly fragile and easily subverted. i mean some companies have been very sucessful. i believe Newmans Own's profits all go to charitity. but i mean a great many public works in pittsburgh were founded on the maimed immigrants of carneiges steel factories. for many years it was possibly one of the worst places to live but just a few years ago it was voted best city in america to live in. its all give in take. the question is which end do we cut short.

btw i havent read gertfrobes previous posts, but u sound a hell of a lot like a particular friend of mine's mother who currently is not held in the highest regard in a number of circles. she has posed a great deal of blame for other's actions on me, and i have been blamed for not being able to keep her child out of trouble when there was very little i could have done. choices are only individual to an extent and i believe this strongly, but there has to be some responsibility. do i blame the system for societies problems? sure why not. but i mean alot of it is on our shoulders were going to have to do something, and im not talking some great revolution just a bit of change in our victimized attitude. the taliban for example were placed in power by us. they were "freedom fighters" and were armed against the soviet union by US. (this was just covered in US history so if im wrong forgive me) and now they are the newfound terrorists.

oh i admit strongly to being a hypocrite. if u have read my posts i say that fairly often. do i buy into our capitalist society. i personally think that capitalism is the way to go, i mean im not going to make any value judgement of living in a dirt hut and eating bugs but hell i like stuff. in fact i like lots and lots of stuff. communism is a great idea but only so far as an idea because it fails to factor in many key parts of human nature, for example greed. am i greedy? yes. do i like the fact that my house has two stories, i have a computer, clean water and food at every moment through out the day. hell yes. i mean i understand the prosperity that capitalism gives us. i mean my mother in particular grew up without electricity, running water, her food was rations and their idea of health care was rubbing insense ash into an open wound. i mean cmon now. my great grandmother was buried alive. i have a disclaimer on the edge of this blog for a reason, this is where i rant and rave the majority u cant take serious. its just be babbling along. i love dry ice. if u take a look at my room its full of shit with no purpose other than being shiny. i go shopping every other week or so. i recently bought 100 bucks worth of clothes i dont really need. i dont know why my accumulation of worthless shit brings me so much joy but it does. thats what im questioning. why i am the way i am. why people are the way they are. personally i find this a more productive activity than doing a few lines of coke. id rather not find out how my teeth can go numb.

oh about the drama queens ending up pregnant and living in a trailer. i dont know what ur definition about drama queen is but thats far from where i see most of them. i see most of them growing up and learning to live without all the excessive shit. i see some of them becoming writers i see some of them becoming actresses. i see some becoming pre-school teachers. i see some being cashiers. i see some being waitresses. i see some of them going places. i see some of them going nowhere. its not like who u are in highschool determiines who u are in life. lets hope we change. i mean DAMN i sure as hell dont want to stay this stupid and ignorant. thats like saying every computer geek is going to end up a 39 year old virgin living in his mothers basement running a .com.

GertFrobe:
interesting that you are concerrned about the reputation that precedes you and your friend, have you ever thought about your role in this?
All your pondering and debating the "rules" of this society, don't you encourage your friend in her drama? "Why is it we have to listen to teachers?, what is tardy anyway" (is this not your philosophy) you drone on about how smart you while she acts on all your ideas and creates the drama that is destructive to her and you. With this don't you encourage to be disrespectful to herself, her school and her parents, perhaps a good friend would try to help her rather than enable her? Consider this dont most drama queens end up pregnant and livng in a trailer?

since u seem to know exactly who her is..and since on this one i had no one in particular...and i have a feeling with certain details u mentioned who exactly ur talking about...would gertfrobe care to email me sometime at armygurl131@hotmail.com so we can have a bit of a chit chat with my enabling of people to hurt themselves?

i think this comment deserves a good response. as i said in this comment this post was spurred by a late night conversation with a friend of mine that is surprisingly mellow and so im inclined to question exactly what spurs on the frustration of gertfrobe. i will proudly admit that i do question the rules of our society, but i have always felt that this is very much an intellectual activity and an excercise in further understanding our place in the world. for example the tardy comment, i admit i personally have a great deal of trouble getting up in the morning, and after PE occasionally a shower takes longer than expected, and sometimes when u REALLLLLLLLY gotta go u gotta go (and usually unless theyre uber mean or ur late EVERY DAY u get off if its nature callin)... but i do make a great effort to be on time. being repeatedly/excessively tardy is disrespectful to everyone it shows ur lack of regard for the flow of the class and really does detract from the already fragile attention.

as for the listening to the teachers, whether we like it or not we are a part of society. why be a rule breaker when there is nothing wrong with the rules? why rebel against something for the sake of rebelling. i very much think we should listen to teachers, even if their advice is not the best, according to ur own sense of style of writing for example, the great majority do have something to offer even if it is only a new point of view. a better question is why we listen to things in writing more than in simple discourse? just because someone writes a book about something it all of a sudden means they know something about it? who knows they could be making it all up and ti could be a load of bs. but hey if the majority believes it it might as well be truth because if its on something that had no cold hard facts this fabricated point of view could very well become the truth. i personally am quite pleased with almost all of my teachers this year. mr vaughn and mr rayburn in particular have been really great. o and really whats so bad about being a conformist. id like to say right now that i am wearing a stretch denim knee length skirt by doll house. i wrap shirt from meerakesh. with a black tank top underneath. i have a cingular cellphone and my hair up in a messy bun. far from the image of a rebel. today i sat around my house watched last of the mohicans for a history paper. watched the princess bride with french subtitles cause i felt like it. ate about 30 dumplings drank a sprite. went to china town buffet with eric and shanes family. came home and chilled on aim doin some anthro hw n bullshittin. i mean all these ideas about running around with unshaven legs, no deoderant, with war paint are jsut ideas. im not exactly the biggest rebel around. in fact im pretty with the grain in a lot of ways. not all of em but most.

i cannot say that i am so me infallible guru that has never encouraged someone to do something that was in the long run detremental but for hte most part i feel that i give good advice. rule number one if ull regret it DONT DO IT. rule number two if ur not sure...and its something permanent DONT DO IT...theres always time later when ur more sure of ur course of action...if it wont matter in 2 months dont stress too much over it most likely it will be ok. DRUGS ARE BAD (unless u take them as ur doctor prescribed) prescriptioin pills will FUCK U UP. while im not a big opponent of either weed or alcohol (i can say truthfully that i have never been high or drunk) THEY CAN FUCK U UP BAD TOO i feel that one should never EVER use them to solve a problem. they will only make it worse. im serious on this one. theyre expensive...detrimental...impaire ur judgement ESPECIALLY IF UR AREADY MESSED UP AND THATS WHY UR DOING IT IN THE FIRST PLACE DUMMY. never let these things control u. i dont htink 3 beers will do u any harm but drinking urself into oblivion is retarded. it solves nothiing it makes u feel like shit and then ppl have to clean up after ur funky ass. i dont know ive just never seen the appeal in that. i mean im dumb enough on my own. i can get myself into enough trouble without being inebriated so why make more work for myself? plus certain meds+alcohol=looney....im looney enough and have plenty of crazyness. dont need more.

i have a feeling that ur a parent and i really do thank u for commenting on my blog. i feel i need a more mature audience every once in a while. but i do not think and have never thought that a parent is infallible. i do not feel that all parents raise their children appropriately for their children. but for the most part all u moms and dads out there are doing what u think is good for ur kids. but give em a break somtimes with the "i dont like ur attitude thing" kids gotta a lot of stuff on their mind, and often its stuff they shouldnt have to deal with in the first place. so if theyre havin a bad day let them lock themselves in a room and blare the music. i understand that its a big bad world out here but unless ur son or daughter is in big trouble....doing really unsafe things ie unprotected sex...getting involved with illegal activities...hurting themselves physically...failing school...chill out most likely uve got a good kid on ur hands. sometimes u gotta loosen ur grip on the choke chain so theyll calm down.

things i definately recommend and commend u if u do so KNOW UR KIDS FRIENDS i dont mean stalking ur child while theyre around but HAVE THEM BY THE HOUSE every now and then say ur hellos and check up on them every couple of hours to make sure theyre not doin nething too dumb. DONT HOVER around cause then ull never get to know ur childs FRIENDS. most likely these are the people making up their world so if u want to UNDERSTAND them get to know THEM. oh yeah and if u let ur kids have friends over u DO know where ur kid is at and u DO know that they have parental supervision.

on the whole DRAMA sucks AASSSS. if u want something to talk about go over to a friends house and dress up the dog. play a prank. watch a movie. give someone a make over. i dont really give a shit but do something semi productive even if it is just a buch of kids pegging each other with popcorn and pillows while watching a really bad teen flick. drama gets old fast and it only breeds more things to be a pain in the ass. cmon now. we all need to grow up. me included. thats why i cnat wait till i get to b in PA again. chantelle, me liz n evan are going to go eat some goddamn icecream at kings drama free for n afternoon i swear.

oh and about me going on about something about being smart? ive never felt that ive been exceptionally smart. im above average, but i mean in the world i live in (cough UNI damn freakin geniuses with the 11 yr old in stats grrrr...) thats on the low end. i mean im intellectually dorky and im the ponderous type but im not the greatest when it comes to book smarts...ive got no common sense WHATSOVEVER...and barely above uni's average social skills. (im representing uni as a geek breeding ground) i mean i talk alot and i might try and sound like i know what im talking about but when it comes down to it its mostly talk. i like to talk out whats goin on in my head rather than trying to actually find an uninhabited island on which i can build PLATO's republic. id rather talk about eating raw meat than chowing down on the stuff. i personally like my steak medium well. ie fully cooked but not yet charred. overall i might be right i might be wrong. talk is fluid. when ive got things figured out ill publish or book or something so then im an AUTHORITY. heh heh.

respect is a good thing. i mean im not saying by any means im an angel or that im the most respectful person. ive been known to piss people off but if theres one person u should be able to respect it should be urself u know? cause u gotta look out for number one. make sure ur ok before u try and save the world. i mean ur only one person. u make a difference but u never know how or when so yeah i dont even know. see thats the big thing. I DONT KNOW. thts why i like to question societies rules. i mean lets take cannibalism for example. its not cool to eat people right? i mean hell i wouldnt do it. but if they are already dead is it really so bad if their not infested with ebola or nething. and on a purely intelleftual level do people taste like chicken? jokes jokes. here i go sounding like a damn hallmark card but u should sell urself short n u never know when ppl ud never expect could be right about stuff.

note to self make drug/sex post/sex ed post/



HEY EVERYONE IM DOING A PAPER ON MENTAL ILLNESS FOR ANTRHO.... IF YA GO TO UNI EMAIL armygurl131@hotmail.com on thoughts opinions nething u want...this is a very open topic. id like to know who u are so i can ask u questions and kind of eliminate people who are just going to fuck with this and make a complete ass of themseleves but the ethnography itself will be anonymous unless a persons identity is requested to be revealed. MUCH THANKS

do u ever feel like ur hiding something even though ur telling the truth? do u ever think that ur lying subconciously... well not lying but bending the truth without even knowing it because ur lying to urself. and then lying about lying to urself. and if u believe ur own lies are u actually lying to other people if what u think u think is true to u. ok that was damn confusing but i hope someone got it.

once again im back on that reputation rant. does it matterwhat people think of u...or is it only what u think of urself. because sometimes their are individuals who have a fairly distorted picture of themselves and how they relate with other people. and many other people see it far differently...but do those other people count? because as my friend and i were saying the other day we are all intricately a part of each others lives. ur life has an influence on my life so arent i entitled some influence on urs? i mean often times our reputation precedes us and so people treat us as they know OF us....and sometimes this is good and sometimes this is bad. but then clearly what other people think does matter because it changes how people think of u thus treat u...thus how u feel u are treated...thus how u react...thus how they see... etc. and u know u could say oh everyone should have a clean slate every time as the solution but that has many problems as well. for example dishonesty would be a huge factore there. misleading a person to believe u are something ur not. but if u think u are...then does it matter if ur really not. because whats REAL...dAmn im back to that NORMAL/REAL thing again. i guess i never raelly understood it as a concept cause if ur completely normal ur rare and thus abnormal. bah. philosophy sometimes hurts my head.

o yeah another thing for all u weirdos who dont already have my sn its armygurl131. yeah so neway time to babble some more. have u ever felt bad about being proud of something? i mean its weird...i always want to be really modest but every now and then im really proud of something i did and i always feel guilty expressing that? does neone else feel that way? like its rude not to start of u know i dno if its all that good but im really proud of myself for being able to do this. i mean is it wrong to be like hey i did a pimpass job on this go me. because sometimes u know those people...im not going to point any fingers...but for example are REALLLLLY good at drawing or something...or at a sport...and ur like OMG thats SOOO cool. ok maybe not exactly like that but u get my point. and then they dont want to accept it so their like im really not all that good. but sometimes..certainly not all the time...u can tell that they dont want to be modest...but they are anyway. OH and then there those people....*evil eye* that do the "oh this old thing" routine. i think thats farrrr worse. maybe im just being weird tonight but its strange the whole modesty arrogance thing.

bah i really dont know what happened to my aim addiction but its crazy...all of a sudden it hold very very little appeal for me anymore. ive kind of moved on to the phone because then i dont get bogged up with the really i dont want to say meaningless...but less noteable conversations the hey..hey...so im bored..yeah me too... conversations. but because ive kind of eliminated that so i can pay more attention to one person and devote more energy to a particular conversation ive also lost alot in the broadness of my conversation because not that wide a range of people call me. and i really miss my psychobabble random philisophical political debates. so hey my cell doesnt have all that many minutes but if ive got the time ill definately call u up from my house fone for a little chit chat. i only say this because most people hate talking to my parents because they are kind of scary and they got REALLY bad asian accent. so if ur bored or somethin next time u catch me online ask for my cell number. id put it up here but...it is a public blog and any weirdo could call me. and thatd just be creepy. so yeah just ask.

sometimes i have lots of pondering about just how ell u can know a person. u know how somethimes u get feelings about people.. but u never truely know at all.. and then one day they tell u and ur surprised but at the same time u kind of knew it was coming? i dno maybe im judgemental or maybe i just like to know how people work but i pay attention to impressions. that doesnt mean the feeling i get from the person is set in stone..because who knows theres all manner of influence. they could have been having a horrible day...they could have recently had some sort of tragedy...there distracted because there excited anxious and busy with something else. but although i take that into account i kind of take not of the feel i get from them in the sand. far from permanent but visible for the time being. ive noticecd that not to get me wrong...i have been wrong many a time..but i tend to get a fairly reasonable impression of a person the first few times i REALLY talk to them not just a hey...sup...nm conversation. i dno i cant tell if this is a good or a bad thing

back to that whole idea about innocence vs experience...ignorance being bliss thing which one really is better. i mean sometimes there people that are so innocent...that i wonder so much if their going to break. just one day snap and go over the deep end. and i want to kind of ease them into the big bad pool of life before they go with a running start to do a dead dive in the deep end. i guess in this analogy (i appologize im a swimmer at heart) ive been out of the baby pool for several years. im guessing im at the five foot range. u know where if u stand on ur tip toes ur good but if a current rushes by u gotta tread a little bit to stay afloat. and sometimes if theres a big splash all of a sudden u dont have a chance to prepare urself and u get a little water up ur nose. but no big itll settle down in a bit.

back to that age thing. before i went off on that lovely tangent i was going on to say what is a NORMAL 16 year old. i mean normal and average are cleearly different things. but whose more normal... the 16 yr old off at parties..having sex...experimenting with drugs..nothing too hard core....or the one that goes to a handful of parties...has a B average...fights with their parents on occasion...and has a handful of friends. or on the opposite end the completely sheltered innocent 16 yr old who has not yet been exposed to the horrors of our constructed reality?

age is a very funny thing. time and place i fully beleave are relative. sokmetimes a simple room can seem so learge and looming... escepcially when it requires cleaning... and other times it can feel so small... barl able to cantain the amount of feeling in u. or it coult seem so large and empty. a void completely lacking in creature comforts. no distractiono interesting enough to hold ur attention. nothing to keep u in this wo4rld. nothing from keeping u from sinking back into that comfortable darkness.

another thing is im never sure where the line is between pleasing eople and self improvement. ive realized that im fairly selfish in nature and dont go commenting on some self esteem boost crap at the moment, let me get my point across. sometimes i feel like im trying to improve certain aspects about myself, for example, my argumentative nature for good reason. sometimes...well alot of times it gets me into trouble. so ok. good thing so far. but on the other hand... that part of who i am. its part of what makes me exciting. its what kept me from being used as a door mat. i guess i just need to find that healthy balance between knowing the right time to do things. because alot of times a good fight is fun... even when both parties are serious... but other times its uncalled for unneeded and nothing but a game for m own one upmanship.

ok so ino u guys are rather dissapointed in my lack of blogging so here goes. well i just had a bit of a heart to heart with several people and once again i feel like im getting to know myself more and more. for a long time i was a afraid of looking at my mistakes. i was ashamed of the different people i have been over the years but im now realizing that theres no need to be ashamed of my former stupidity, because ive learned from them. i should only be ashamed of my mistakes from which i have not yet learned and continue to repeat.

u know how sushi often bothers alot of people because its raw meat? well what about cooked meat? how does burning something change the fact that it is the slowly rotting carcass of some formerly living breathing animal with siblings parents...family etc. i mean really how does cooking something change anything. then u have warm/hot dead animal. i just dont get how thats any more distanced from the living thing.

u know fashion has allllways baffled me. always. i mean why can't boys wear makeup huh? or skirts? and why is it attractive to draw black circles around ur eyes...rub mud colored greasy shit all over ur face to top it off with a bunch of dust? then take some purple shit and rub it on ur eyelids...take a pair of tweezers as rip ur eyebrow hairs by the root? i mean its all very very weird. and hairstyles. why is making a knoted mess (messy bun) "cute". i mean its just a tangled mass of dead protein.

oh and another thing...why is it cheaper to buy clothes than to buy fabric and supplies? i mean i was going to make a shirt because they had this nice fabric...but...the fabric cost 15 bucks a yard...and id prolly need that much since i need room to err...and i could find a shirt like it on clearance for about 5-8 dollars. sadly i wish uni offered home ec and shop classes. i like to do stuff with my hands i find it rather satisfying to be able to say yo bia i made this shiznit. or something to that effect.

ok have u guys noticed that multi-purpose things are no longer fashionable? and neither are shirts that are remotely covering whether its size or opaqueness (opacity?) i mean its all a damn ploy to make us buy more shit. thats why all these damn shirts are see thru. so u have to buy two damn shirts b4 u buy one. i mean what is this shit. what happened to nice high quality thick cotton? why does it all look like its been so worn out that its 30 some years old? then places like dry ice are based completely on the concept of oooo pretty useless stuff that no one actually needs. i mean why is a piece of soap with a plastic toy inside better? and who really needs a cell phone holder? couldnt u just errr set it on a table? and why to toilet brushes have to come with an attractive stand? arent they used to scrub ur shit off a toilet?? and these damn pearl tampons with their irredecent applicators. shit ur just shoving it up ur pussy who the hell cares if the applicator is pretty?

u know my attitude towards plastic surgery is like its ur body do what ud like. i mean if u were scarred in some accident u always have the choice getting a bit of help with the asthetic side and no one would look down on you. but then again what about someone that was born just really really ugly...isnt that once again not their fault..so wouldnt it be alright if they got plastic surgery neway? and what about those barbie dolls? so what if there completely plastic its their life right? well theres only only thing i have a problem with...ur gonna age one way or another so basically ur blowing thousands and thousands on thousands of dollars on something so vain..and its usually just to help your self esteem. to make u happier about urself. but wouldnt donating all that money you would spend on liposuction or a face lift be better spent helping hundreds of people dying of starvation or disease? wouldnt that make you feel alot better about urself? and that sort of spending actually does something at least mildly long lasting and life changing. and anyways isnt beauty in the eye of the beholder? whose more beautiful someone with a good heart or someone with a nice rack?

i guess its kind of like communism/ capitalism some ppl have alot while some have little or everyone has about the same. the only problem i see with communism is stagnation/greedy bastards who then have a WHOLE lot while everyone else is kind of screwed. btw i think bill gates should buy all the rain forests...i think he would do alot of good if he did that

have u ever noticed that some ppl seem to luck out in everything while other people are constantly screwed? or those extremely happy people while other ppl are always sad. u know sometimes i think it should all even out that way everyone is at least kind of happy, but then again wouldnt that take all the fun out of things if the world was homogenized. i mean there are some very very pretty ppl...and some very not so pretty ppl if everyone was kind of average life would be kind of dissapointing dont u think? so which is better? ups and downs or an even playing field

yeah time for me to babble some more. have any of you ever really wondered if all of the history we learn is completely and utterly made up as are all the other things we learn from these teachers? i mean what is education if not brainwashing and propaganda. we already know the chemistry we learn is wrong as is most of the physics we learn but we must memorize it anyway. these dates given to us are arbitrary, who are our teachers to be an authority on such things. so what if there were accounts that said this anything from that long ago could easily be misinterpreted or taken out of context. i mean its all about the he said she said bullshit. sry bout that i just had to. i mean how do our teachers know this stuff someone else told them. and before them someone else. its like a really professional way of playing telephone and if u kids learned anyting in elementary school things get fucked up along the line. i mean look at the rumor mill that is Highschool. things go from she sat next to him to she sat on him to she was straddling him to she was having dry sex and making out with him. and im not kidding. its all rather sad that we have nothing better to really talk about. i mean look at our yearbook people can remember each and every couple. its sad. very sad.

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heh heh just playin im all wired on sugar n shit because i have to get my history done all super fast and it kind sucks balls that we have test on so much shit. i mean i only store this info in short term memory. and then i cram the info in so then my head hurts and its mere regurgitation because its not like i have any real information in my notes. heh heh have u seen my notes?? THERE NOT IN ENGLISH BAAHHH! thanks what i get for sleeping in class.